Thursday, November 11, 2004

Is it me???

I need your help, blogland.

First of all, I am going to be crazy, swamped at work today. I came in to find I received about 12 new files to manage. Woohoo! I love being busy.

But...I do need your help/input.

Last night, as I posted, was Hubby's birthday. I was his faithful servant for the day and his whims became my sole purpose for existance. In bed, I obeyed him completely. He first commanded me to rub my breasts against his back. The across his face. I don't get that, but I'm game! Then he asked if I felt like going down. I smiled (BIG SMILE) because it was the first time in 10 years he'd ever asked me.

So, down I went. I take deep pride in my techniques here and have been told I am really good at it. After about 20 minutes, he said in a ragged voice "Come here!" and pulled me on top of him. I rode him slowly, fast, soft, hard until we were both covered in sweat and flipped over to have him on top. He pushed, pounded, stroked and rocked. About an hour later, in complete exhaustion, he says it's just not working - he feels "on the verge" but never crosses the line to sweet relief.

Now, this happens frequently with us. My husband can occasionally go for hours and never achieve release. Why???

This confuses me. First of all, I feel like I failed. Last night I committed another hour to my very, very best in the arts of blow jobs and hand jobs with no results. He stays hard, but can't finish.

Is it me? Am I doing something wrong? Is this common? I've never before been with a man who had this problem. It seemed more to me like men could explode at the slightest touch...so faced with this, I am just constantly confused.

I admit, I do take it personally. I feel like I failed. I feel like I messed it up somehow. He swears up and down that it's not me and that it feels amazing, but he just gets to some point where it's like a switch is flipped and no matter how heroic my efforts are, he's just not going to come.

Guys? Girls? I would love some feedback here!

Posted by Red :: 9:06 AM :: | ---------------------------------------